Jealous of the progress I have made, they follow me around stealing my confidence little by little, planting seeds of doubt, reminding me of the numerous
mistakes I’ve made, convincing me there are blunders I will never stop paying for. The last glimpse of light fades and all I see is darkness. Hope, faith, courage, strength have abandoned me. Despair, suspicion, shame, weakness envelop my spirit. No ladders, ropes or pulleys can save me from this pit. Every breath is labored, sleep escapes me, food is an afterthought, my stomach is a clenched fist, exhaustion clouds my judgment and I fall, blanketed in sadness and defeat.
I have let my fears decide my fate and the enemy stands victorious on the battlefield of my mind…smugly grinning.